Living is easy with eyes closed



"We cannot be born, and we cannot die. Like all energy, we can only change shapes and sizes and manifestations"

Looking for Alaska - John Green

Going into the city tonight = loss of self esteem over all the pretty/skinny girls, hatred for all the hipster clones, loss of money on buying stupid things, probably waste my money on food that I do not need to eat! argh.

I like going out with my friends but sometimes I wish I could just stay at home in a little ball, it’d be easier. 

I feel really bad because last night my boyfriend kept asking me how much I love him and stuff and all I could say was ‘a lot’, ‘more than anything’. None of that cuts it though and I just want him to know how much I adore him and I don’t want him to ever need to ask me how much. 

2011 has been the best year because I finally got to be with you after all these years and I know that everything has now settled into it’s rightful place and I can start being a happier person. What makes me the most happiest is knowing that 2012 will just be the beginning of more wonderful things to come and more memories spent with you and everyone else who truly matters. 

Its those nights that scare me the most. Those late nights when demons from the past come back to get me. The demons I thought I’d won over because I was stronger than them. But I’m not stronger because they’re back here and they’re controlling me and I’m scared of what I’m capable of while they’re in control.